I love this song (:

Micheal Jackson's LOVE CHILD???!!!!

OOOOh my, I didn't know Micheal had it in him!!!!! he got it in lol
that Omer kid isn't that bad looking either

Supraaaaa

This could cheer me up anytimee

Damn, I cannot get any sleep for shit. So I might as well use my time to post another blog.
So, while I was aimlessly surfing the web for something interesting, I came across this quote from Charles Dickens and I thought to myself: mhhmm this describes how I am feeling at this exact moment...

"Heaven knows we need not be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of Earth, overlying our hard hearts"

Heaven knows that I am tired of people in general and their stupid ass games. my head is weary and I am tired of stressing myself thinking about why certain people act the way they do towards another. They say never shed a tear for someone who will not shed one for you. However I can't help but tear up just a little bit when I think about the fact that other person wouldn't cry for me....

Finally uploaded my artwork (: Most people that know me don't even know how well I can actually draw. For some reason people can't see me as the artistic type or the intellectual one. I bet you anything that I did a hella a lot better than you did on your SAT and I can actually hold up a decent conversation about politics and not be bored to death, but i just don't show it. I lack Motivation.
No one else in my household can draw, but for some reason, I can; and if art could pay my bills for the rest of my life with art, I would just draw, paint and graphically design things forever...

On a Serious Tip...

"and i wanna be the girl that you tell your friends that you found the one yet i refuse to wait for a down pore in the middle of a summer's drought."

I hate falling fast and easy, it's fun while you're falling but when you hit rock bottom (when you truly hit the bottom.) it hurts, badly. This is the third time this has happened to me, and it sucks. I keep picking the wrong people and it's sad because I thouht that I made the right choice this time. Oh, well was I fucking wrong. It hurts because it's not like this person can come out and just tell me what's wrong or what's going on through his mind. In fact, I would rather have a person just tell me up front rather than just give me mixed signals or the cold shoulder. I can take signals, I can definitely take a hint, even though it takes me a while most of the time, I eventually catch on...

And to tell you the truth, It hurts like hell because it's the same thing over and over again. Why is it when I first meet a guy, the guys makes me feel so special but when he finally gets what he wants or when it takes too long for him to get what he wants...he just leaves or becomes a complete ass. It makes me wonder why I am always picking the wrong type of guys. And I know for a fact there's nothing is wrong with me. I do not have stamped across my forehead "easy slut tramp" but for some reason i'm guessing i came across like that to you

I can take a hint, love and I'm definitely not one to hold grudges. I care and you don't. simple as that. It's fine, I made the mistake of tripping and free falling. But, I've taken something from this "fling". The next guy I'm definitely going to take it super duper slow. I'm going to make sure that we are both on the same page before anything

" Life is a dream walking, and death is a going home"

I never understood what that meant but I've always thought it was such a pretty saying (:

A friend sent this to me so I've decided curse everyone else to watch this

yo I don't care...you can't sing mister...

...Had Chemistry Because She Was a Cancer

Yupp My birthday is in a few days and I am Finally about to be 18 and to tell you the truth, I'm not stoked at all...who am I gonna celebrate it with?...everyone if off doing there own thing...I'm back in Virginia, so its not like I can just walk off and go find something to do...i think im going to go buy a pack of cigarettes and give them away to someone. Smoking is not my thing...

On another note "not my thing" we were definitely not talking about cigarettes either lmao

Yonnick

oooo...

not ya thing?

1:24pmKhafayat

never tried it before lol

no one's ever asked me to lmao

1:26pmYonnick

ooo.. thats how i know u dont live in NY

in NY they feen

The T.O. Show (:

I don't know shit about football...big, steriod shooting guys (some midly decent) running up and down a field, knocking the wind out of each other while wearing those cute little tight things that define every shape...EVERYTHING (: I mean, I watch "The Game" and I love that show but other than that, me and football...ehhhhh. Another thing I know (and love) about football is Terrell Owens. How can someone be so talented, so educated and that good looking...he's a triple threat. And I cannot wait for his show to air on VH1 July 20th. I am going to watch it religiously. With that said, watch. Man, if the Cowboys don't want him...I would gladly take him.

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Been Gone For A Minute.

Now I'm back in the jump off (: LOL lameness but I have been MIA for a while ( no thanks to the lack of proper technology in Queens and the lack of INTERNET back home SMH) I've got so much to blog about and with so little time. WHERE TO START???

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There's this one guy (:

that I blogged about previously. WHAT TO SAY? Well, this little summer vacation/ hiatus that I took from reality I saw him again and damn was I happy. I had this stupid little grin on my face from the time i first saw him at the subway entrance til I was leaving our mutual "friend's" place (why is friend in little " " ? Because, when I say friend, I mean jerk face.) This guy is just so right. But I don't really know anymore... before I thought there was something different about this guy but i'm starting to feel as if he is the same like those other guys im trying to escape desperately from..oh well moving oooonnn....next storyyy...

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There's this one guy (:

that I met in Queens. He is sooooo funny, cute, artistic....aaaand so untouchable. Let me take the story back a few...So here I am, stuck in Queens, NY with nothing to do. Then my uncle out of the blue was like heeeey, whoever wants to follow me to a cookout get ready. So of course I got dressed and ran out the house and into the van. When we got there (when I say mean "we" I mean , me, Aisha, Idia, and my lame little sister.) there was nothing to do. We knew no one so we spoke to no one lol we kind of secluded ourselves from the whole crew but its whatever because we had a damn good time by ourselves just the four of us. Well I guess we were having a little too much fun by ourselves or the other teens that were there felt left out of our foursome (soooo sexy) but the next thing you know it, we've got random people going out of their way to talk to us. Except for this one guy, who was cracken jokes from afar but wasn't directly talking to me...so I asked him what his name was and he told me it was Yonnick (: (which, by the way, is the name of half of my favorite rap groups U-N-I. ) He was tall..taller than meee, had a light skin complexion, and this deep as voice. ANYWHOOOO so we left the cookout. And all i knew was his name was yonnick...no last name...no cell...no aim FUCKIN NAAAADAAA. However, the next day, I found him on facebook (yay) the day after that I got his number (yay) and the day after next I got his Aim (yay) it all worked out for me (: